I am different from you..I am who i am..I am the person you do not know and will never know...For I am someone without identity..I show my reaL seLf to the worLd..Yet the reaLity which is hidden from everyone who stares at me..They see the different...They see the unreaL...They see not me but the one they expect to be me..I taLk a Lot..But i speak onLy one thing..Yet peopLe hear different meanings..But i dont know if there's anyone who Listens carefuLLy..I move careLessLy and with no direction...and no one should care..I am free and happy...Though my Life can't bear...Is what you see in me reaL or fake??Am i HAppy or is it my facade?Think whatever..No one is perfect..Don't brand me somebody...Nor expect anything from me...

..I am the CHANGE that forever will be UNCHANGED..

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

I was a temporary love bug

I couldn't help falling in love...It did not really matter that we differ in culture or nationality, but I still loved him like we just lived in the same town, and speak the same language.
I didn't mind my friends' advices: be careful in falling in love, don't give too much.
I decided I want to know and experience love in all its glory by myself. If there is pain in loving, let me know it. And so I did. I accepted him after just 2weeks of daily chatting in the internet.
The first month was wonderful, love is really in the air, I felt like everything was so right and I thought he was the right one for me. We videochat every night for hours, all the sweet words and gestures, and publicly declaring our love. It was the best days of my life. The next month, we started having fights. We hurt each other. From the third month onwards, he had acquired the vanishing-act syndrome. Every now and then, he disappears, and comes back after few days or weeks like nothing happened. Comes the point when I met his ex/girlfriend/lover/original whatever, the one he truly loves. I get all the signs, that was why he made me promise not to tell anyone about our relationship, and why he does not want to commit to me because he still loves her and everyone in his place knows what they've been through. He met me online, had our relationship for just months versus they, in a relationship for 4 years and still communicating every other month. She still loves him and believes that they are meant for each other. Just imagine the pain for me. I swear, it's like I want to cut my wrist and let it all bleed. I loved him so much, trusted him, and told him almost all my secrets. And until now I do love him and that will never change. If I may fall in love once again, and that I really hope, he will stay close to my heart. I am really thankful to him, I've experienced love like never before. He was my stepping stone to the greater scope of romantic love. I love you so much and thank you Anshul.

Meeeehhhh!!!!!

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..It was indeed a DRASTIC CHANGE, I always say..In just a very short time of my LIFE, in the MIDST of it all, I came to a halt and said....'Is This Me Already?