This is the worst topic I could ever write about at this point of my life..
It's like all the time, I get to like somebody..and for those moments, I thought I was in love, but the truth is, I wasn't.. and until such times that I could finally bear in my mind that I am so different from the common people, the average girls of my age, and females alike..I don't think I'm ever capable of loving and to be loved. I don't think I'm ever capable of showing my real feelings to somebody, and worst, I don't think I'm ever capable to be normal..
I've been alive in this universe for 18 calendar years already, but am I matured enough to handle this lack inside me? this yearning inside me?
Or am I matured enough to finally say now that I'm inlove with someone ?? I couldn't foresee when will I again tell myself that I am not and never have been in love..And I do hope that I might realize it someday.
I could never afford to lose again my sanity into something wonderful yet deceiving.. I will not let myself fall hopelessly into a hole of emptiness caused by lies and unrequited love..
This is not my fate..
and if ever I also deserve somebody to show to me a world totally different from the one I confined myself into, then, the heavens must be on my side! they must have felt humanly pity and mercy upon me..
I need more clarity, I need to see more thoroughly to my intentions,to have a better perception on things regarding this Havoc they call Love..
5 comments:
hey kiyuki! haven't seen your vibrant face lately, it was really a great time hanging around with your company!!!thanks a lot for the friendship we've built for thid year. i hope the change within you is for the better and not for the worse. anyway, i'd lkike to share this point of view of miss Bogacki, heehehehe. i'll cosider myself to be inloved when I turned 21!!!
for me its, bringing some kind'a help. this demarcation or indication gave me a real bunch of help in lessening and better more, prebvention from confusion! i remembered that once you've told me that " in every decision you'll make never regret those ones that made you happy". if ever you're happy considering yourself inlove with someone, then GO!!! consider yourself falling with somebody who is lucky to have you as his admirer or LOVER!!! nyahahahaha.
good luck for the quest of love and love for the quest. at least most of the confusions of yours gave yuou a thousend reason to celebrate and digf up life.
merry Christmas and advance happy new year!
hey kiyuki! haven't seen your vibrant face lately, it was really a great time hanging around with your company!!!thanks a lot for the friendship we've built for thid year. i hope the change within you is for the better and not for the worse. anyway, i'd lkike to share this point of view of miss Bogacki, heehehehe. i'll cosider myself to be inloved when I turned 21!!!
for me its, bringing some kind'a help. this demarcation or indication gave me a real bunch of help in lessening and better more, prebvention from confusion! i remembered that once you've told me that " in every decision you'll make never regret those ones that made you happy". if ever you're happy considering yourself inlove with someone, then GO!!! consider yourself falling with somebody who is lucky to have you as his admirer or LOVER!!! nyahahahaha.
good luck for the quest of love and love for the quest. at least most of the confusions of yours gave yuou a thousend reason to celebrate and digf up life.
merry Christmas and advance happy new year!
you're very much welcome and I, as well, truly enjoyed your company and surely will treasure it in my heart..hahaha..itago ko gid sa baul ni lola ko...
i do hope too that the changes in me won't send you all in retreat against my friendship..huhuhu..yes, I could clearly recall myself repeating that line (" in every decision you'll make never regret those ones that made you happy")over and over again, yet, I myself often fails to do it! as you see, how can you ever be happy in receiving only but unrequited love!! I don't even know which is real of my feelings since everything happens all the same and recurs every now and then! I could only hope I am always mistaken (thinking I love the person) cause it's so painful to bear my pitiful disposition. not now in my ken have I considered diggin up the beauties of a life inloved, instead, I could but consider diggin up my grave..
we'll miss kiyuki...
hehehe... I guess we're just on same track... hehehe...
we're on the process of discovering ourselves.. what we want and what's our purpose...
hehehe...
the girl in my latest post "stranger over a bottle" just said..."thanx... i'm no more alone because of you... "
we'll miss kiyuki...
hehehe... I guess we're just on same track... hehehe...
we're on the process of discovering ourselves.. what we want and what's our purpose...
hehehe...
the girl in my latest post "stranger over a bottle" just said..."thanx... i'm no more alone because of you... "
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