______The Last Hope"......

God, Where am I? Am I in this world? Am I in Heaven? Am I in Hell? Or nowhere at all? I do not know. I do not have the answers maybe you have. Could I ever find my way home? ould I ever find the light to tear the Darkness? My happiness, my dreams...my path, here? Where are you? Who are you? Who am I? Do you know? I want to go, I want to escape, I want to run away from this cell. I'm so, so afraid. I want reality. I want to look at the world. But here, it is so dark. Help me. I think I'm crying. I can feel it, but I cannot see it, my tears. Look at me! Could you look at me? I'm ugly, right?! I'm dull! You all hate me, right?! Go on. Laugh! Laugh at me! I can take it...Darkness is beginning to swallow me. Fill my mind, my heart, my blood, my senses, my feelings, my heart, and my soul. With this..Darkess, this evil desire is in me. Forgive me if I have sinned. But this life I can't forgive...Is there any hope? None...Another hello? Only goodbye.
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(I made this back in second year high school)

I Am A Cursed Creature

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I am a cursed creature.
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Eternity, I will be alive.
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But death is my middle name, a soul in chain.
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I bleed an endless flux.
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My tears dried up for years.
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But I still weep of a promised love unending.
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Luck does not hear me.
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Life has abandoned me forever.
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I could only pray I would be stoned soon.
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Smiles have left me.
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I embraced hurt so much now that it doesn't feel
like hurt anymore.
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It only felt now like a habit, involuntarily arising.
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I am a cursed creature.
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A detained spirit.
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A poor soul in fated agony.
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