Soul Mate

People are always trying to find for that person who they will be sharing their life forever. Some are so eager and desperate, while to some, it comes so easy, in just a blink of an eye, the person is already infront of you.



It has been always told to almost everybody, that there is a soul mate for everyone. But is it really true? How is it that many are getting divorced, separated, left alone by those they love?



There is no such thing as soul mate. It is just a notion that keeps everybody hoping for something false and uncertain. Those people who keep on saying that there is indeed a soul mate for everyone is a fool, a hoax, and a damned unmerciful, illogical person. By believing there exist a soul mate just gives us expectations, which are not good, since we will be expecting for uncertain things, which later on becomes dissapointment and discouragement. Such belief on this leads us to unhappiness. Many are inferior, insecure and in vain hopeless. The idea of a soul mate would heighten their feelings more, how cruel the word will be to them, how ruthless the sayer are to them.



Soul mates are nothing but mere fantasy and imagination. To those who believe in this, think again, because everything in this world: people, feelings, things, relationships, are impermanent.

...My FRIENDS Comes First!

Flowers do wither,

paints do fade,

chocolates do melt,

even rocks get destroyed too.

Friends are lovely,

but not like flowers that withers and die;

friends bring color to our life but not like paints that fade in time;

friends are the sweetest thing on earth but not like chocolates that melt and the taste dissapears;

friends are the strength we rely on but not like rocks that can soon be crushed by a heavier weight.

Friends are for keeps,

forever like exquisite diamonds, beautiful and indestructible.

Nobody can deny that friendship is precious as a diamond stone in ones life,

nobody can say that man can live alone,

we are social beings,

we need one another to survive in this vast space.

We, individuals can only find the purpose and meaning of life,

not in solitude but in company with others.
My Friends comes first.

yes, they could still be life's worst.

We would laugh,

play silly stuff

But, when my girlfriends get played,

I'm gonna slit the player's throat.

When my boyfriends get dumped,

I'm gonna run trim out her lashes.

Men won't have me better than my friends,

they are no good, compared to my bestfriends.

Boy, you may have me,

but, when worse comes to worst,

My friends comes first!!!

Call Me "yaas"

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Sanya is pretty, I always see her around at school.
She has a long waist-length hair, soft, and straight.
I envy her..But I also dislike her..
She has a nice body, with small hips and a full bosom.
Sanya is famous among the guys, she was always greeted by them..
What's enviable about her are her eyes, that seems to captivate the men everytime.
She is nice, kind, and sweet.
I like how she shows her care and concern for me as well as to others.
Sanya is the best, the best slut..
I tell her all the time, "yaas!!"
She just smile at me, says, "yeah, I am a slut, and you're still a nut!"
Oh, the bitch.
Then her phone rang, another hook?
She grinned, "I'm gonna suksumcuk..see ya honey! Ima better leave!"
Again, the bitch is gonna have a bitchy day..
Sanya, I hate her. The girl who's always with the guys making rounds.
Me, the innocent wholesome cute little virgin,
Though, she knows otherwise, She knows how bitchy I can be.
I'm not so good with men, I never had a steady boyfriend.
She never had a steady boyfriend either, and she has several.
What about me? I end up going out with strangers, then the devilish slut in me stirred.
Stirred until it hit my conciousness: "I ain't a csmfs like Sanya, and I ain't doing it ya bastard.."
And here comes women, oh, how gorgeous they are.
I am not like 'em not as appealing and hot like 'em.
Then, let me try on some of 'em hotness? why not?
Oh, no I can't!
So what?
I wanna be Sanya, And be called "Yaas!!"



................???????......baffled lady.......

Dark Chocolate

It is time that I should forget the taste of a dark chocolate.
It is bitter-sweet and melts easily on my tongue. It's bitterness is soft and tasty. It's sweetness is gross and unpleasant. My worry is that, why are bitter-tasting treats are a lot more wonderful in my mouth than those honey-flavored candies that leaves you parched and wanting for more?Why is it that sweetness linger most on our taste buds? Why is it that bitterness doesn't but I still love it? I hate sweet-tasting white chocolates because I don't want to thirst for it every now and then but cannot be quenched. Bitterness doesn't thirst me, but I love it and I never get tired of it. Though it pleases me, it's bitterness still stay. It is still bitter, always bitter. Why won't the former linger not? I hope it would not so I could taste it without reluctance, since it won't make me addicted to it and won't parch my throat. A dark chocolate is bitter, as bitter as it can be, but I love it. And why is it so? Isn't it that sweetness is sweeter than bitterness? I wish I would be fearless to give in to sweet white chocolates and would be able to love it. But then, I'm stuck with the bitter taste of my dear dark chocolate.

~Vanity Cheré~

I am by myself, sitting among the fragrant flowers. Sunny it was, but the wind was cool. Contrasting both like my red polka dot skirt and my green striped blouse. A wonderful day, a peaceful meditation, but the devil is always around to twist reality; and what should be straight he delights to be crooked.

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"Then, a gentle wind brushed to my nape.

I heard it hushed a word, unclear, droning together

with the buzzing of the bees.

I am hoarse, I am in worse;

But it hushed to still me, it kills me."

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"A moment has passed, and I am still dead;

The bees are near me, hoping for a sting;

Sting me, sting me, poison me to bed,

Oh dear me! I rest sedated, my mind chaotic."

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"I would feel the cottony cushion of passion

I would savor the tasty juice of temptation

I would delight to the prick of a thorny rose

I would meet my destruction, a pathetic toast."

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"No, I do not revel in pleasure!

Nor would I desire such measure;

Things banish from existence, it will never remain for long;

It does not tarry inside a soul, tho you might believe otherwise.

If it does, tell me so!

And let me tell you the tale of a flame:

Little fiery flame appeared an instant,

With long and hardy candle for support,

But, he too, would melt and abandon fiery flame.

It might not be soon, even so,

Airy wind is somewhere, to blow away his flame."

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"If it's pleasure you want, consider a whore

A wanton lady would fill you in during the night,

With whispers of indecency and lust for flesh

Take me as one, and I'll swear these to you no less.

I am no flower, I am no sweet;

This in me a dark chocolate and a sour treat."

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Why put me to inquisition?

A hope for me to lie truth is vain.

I do not need beautifully wrapped presents, soft pillows to lie at sleep;

I would rather take a worn-out trash, a piece of wood to rest my head;

If it comes from you,

I trust not your wonders but those women might inside of men so dread."

~

I am fated, so never come near me. If it is to poison me then I welcome you. But if it is to heal me and leave me unattended, better pray for me benumbed. To revive me with a flux of elixir, from a mortal heart's sinful sensation, is to live in abaddon. An excruciating punishment to leash myself to, worst than to be left in seclusion inside a frozen temple, birth till death.

~

Delighted, the devil left again. the crook, the twisted, but my sedated mind still lingers on a peaceful conflict with bitter pleasures and deadly wonders.

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StarLit Sky

Under a black starlit sky, I was alone and depressed. I looked up to heaven and glimpsed upon a tiny star and thought it told me something...

Look at the stars. They're like humans here on land. Some shine brightly; some shine the brightest; and some hide behind darkness. There are great men, there are just men, and there are even men of no identity. I am one of the tiny dots in the sky, but I have a color different from the rest of them. though I may be small, odd-colored and my light is dull; you will see sooner or later, that star with the oddest color will shine the brightest from all the rest. Look at them, look at me, look up at all of us, and be hopeful. At first, you may be just a tiny dot in the universe, or maybe nothing at all! But...Believe in yourself...In what you can do, and in what you can be...Be the greatest of who you are, then, you can shine brightly like the rest us, or better yet, the brightest among the stars and inspire mankind...

dAnNy's SoNg

I'd like to share this song to everybody....This is my favorite song..I first heard this song last year in the car on my way ome from school...Finally, I found it in the net and finally I knew the real title and the artist! Just this day.......I'm so happy.....This is Danny's Song sung by Kenny Loggins...

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People smile and tell me I'm the lucky one,And we've only just begun.

Think I'm gonna have a son.

He will be like she and me, as free as a dove,Conceived in love.

Sun is gonna shine above.

^^^

And even though we ain't got money,I'm so in love with you, honey,

And everything will bring a chain of love.

And in the morning, when I rise,You bring a tear of joy to my eyes

And tell me everything is gonna be alright.

^^^

Seems as though, a month ago, I was Beta-Chi,Never got high.

Oh, I was a sorry guy.

And now, I smile and face the girl that shares my name.

Now I'm through with the game.This boy will never be the same.

^^^

And even though we ain't got money,I'm so in love with you, honey,
And everything will bring a chain of love.
And in the morning, when I rise,You bring a tear of joy to my eyes
And tell me everything is gonna be alright.

^^^

Pisces, Virgo rising is a very good sign,Strong and kind,

And the little boy is mine.

Now I see a family where the once was none.Now we've just begun.

Yeah, we're gonna fly to the sun.

^^^

And even though we ain't got money,I'm so in love with you, honey,

And everything will bring a chain of love.

And in the morning, when I rise,You bring a tear of joy to my eyes

And tell me everything is gonna be alright.

^^^

Love the girl who holds the world in a paper cup.Drink it up.

Love her and she'll bring you luck.

And if you find she helps your mind, better take her home.

Don't you live alone.Try to earn what lovers own.

^^^

And even though we ain't got money,I'm so in love with you, honey,

And everything will bring a chain of love.

And in the morning, when I rise,You bring a tear of joy to my eyes

And tell me everything is gonna be alright.

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Please click on the link to hear the song...http://www.imeem.com/foxypinay/music/PcHZ-zxL/kenny_loggins_dannys_song/

Leave if Ye wish

Leave if ye wish, I will not hinder ye;
Be gone if ye fancy all such grace brought to yer knee;
I lost not sight only but feelings might be,
To leave me cower'd, breathless of yer stand;
And pray tell, my man, of grace and glee
How swell is yer flight, fare well homeland!

No mouth nor tongue may twist with gentleness
Of words from a lady whom adores ye no less;
Ye hath boast'd ye'r a May of erudition,
To ken such wit of ye, need not delve to reason.
Peace in ye, appearance that to Him dost owe;
Beauty in ye, shall Dionysius wrath be fall in tow,
Strength in ye, hath shaketh the prowess in me;
Behold, I shall forget not the mem'rie,
Nay, verily recount til soul leaveth mine body.

Lasting passion for ye, good bye 'tis not the word,
Away! to the mystery of the morrow;
Whilst I ken hows't to hear the Lord,
I can nay be gay to bid mine fare well to sorrow!

...ESCAPE tO PARADISE...

I believe that this is the moment of my escape. After years of searching for the right path, for my destination, I finally realized all the signs on the road, tried to tell me. During those uncertain times, I thought I could never get sight of the right trail. I deemed it impossible for someone like myself - coward and weak - to dare get a grasp of peace and happiness, even lightly. But I stood, held my head upright, blinked my eyes a moment, but never regarded myself a bit of strength and will. The cowardice and weakness which molded my character, contoured my actions were the ones that unexpectedly nurtured an iota of strength and will submerged within the pit of my consciousness. Owing to the hurts and resentments I've exposed myself into in the past years of my life, these have hardened me, nullified the piercing pain of unmended wounds. Later, I was in apathy however, realizing such coldness in me, whereupon I entered a new place on earth filled with frivolity yet saturated with fervent love for life. My cynical view changed, my somber regard to living was soon tinted with frolic naivety. I then saw the light emanating from a direction I once forbore to look upon, yet I now firmly laid my eyes on. My escape to paradise will not remain in perpetuity, i reminded my self. But, I still believe in paradise. I know it's not some place you can look for. It's how you feel for a moment in your life. It is this moment. Not yesterday nor tomorrow, but at this very moment.

HavOc wiThiN

This is the worst topic I could ever write about at this point of my life..

It's like all the time, I get to like somebody..and for those moments, I thought I was in love, but the truth is, I wasn't.. and until such times that I could finally bear in my mind that I am so different from the common people, the average girls of my age, and females alike..I don't think I'm ever capable of loving and to be loved. I don't think I'm ever capable of showing my real feelings to somebody, and worst, I don't think I'm ever capable to be normal..

I've been alive in this universe for 18 calendar years already, but am I matured enough to handle this lack inside me? this yearning inside me?

Or am I matured enough to finally say now that I'm inlove with someone ?? I couldn't foresee when will I again tell myself that I am not and never have been in love..And I do hope that I might realize it someday.

I could never afford to lose again my sanity into something wonderful yet deceiving.. I will not let myself fall hopelessly into a hole of emptiness caused by lies and unrequited love..

This is not my fate..
and if ever I also deserve somebody to show to me a world totally different from the one I confined myself into, then, the heavens must be on my side! they must have felt humanly pity and mercy upon me..

I need more clarity, I need to see more thoroughly to my intentions,to have a better perception on things regarding this Havoc they call Love..

Frozen In Bliss

Towering buildings..
Huge flying creatures..
Extraordinary species..
Singing flowers..
Dancing trees..
Icy black mountains..
Floating houses..
Hanging gardens..
Crystal staircases..
Magical warriors..
Faeries..

They all sang in merriment in a far away place,
I could hear them, playing in my ears.
They whisper melody unknown to me.

Over my shoulders, I see a stout man.
Over my head, I felt a warm flush of wind just blew.
On the ground where I stand, I felt a quake as if a volcano erupted.
Below the ground, it shakes like a gigantic eel was digging.
Infront, I see a hazy mist of blue.
Infront, I watched the green tinge of smoke swirling with the bluish mist.
Infront, shadows of existence coming towards me.

Somewhere, footsteps droning.
Anywhere, I stand stoned on the grassy land.
Everywhere, dreamy as it could be, twisting reality.

Stay where you are, come if you may.
In a hollowed spot I crouch, in a serene place of demise.
He who told me a way to reality,
How comforting a sea of fantasy, a vast ocean of light and darkness,mixing the other, creating a blanket of joy.

Light and Darkness, dear friends of the past.
Light and Darkness, my companion in a land where mangroves grow in abundance in the snowy alps of Tree Hills.
Thundering amidst the sunshine, lit all my worries in flame of wisdom.
Scourging fire from the crust of Moon Light, from the core of Moon Might.
Deep setting eyes of the mountain flyer.
Deep in his lair, the valley of power.

A bard in his own respect, an owl by his side.
Sing your tune, a lovely hour of fleeting pasture,
Gone is the serenade of long lost passion.

Leap into the dungeon of the make-believe King,
May his memories reign in his terror of kingdom.
Done is his time, when dragons honor him.
Done were the years of apocalyptic judgement.
He who fears the Great Lord of Tundr,
The one who fought all tyrant.
Noble is he, but fearsome his plea,
The Lord who's named The Great Warrior from Tundr.
He is the King, the Great Lord of Tundr.
But only and no one is as noble as he.

I know him, from the smell of his boots to the slits of his eyes.
I know his name, from the color of his hair to the firmness of his arms.
I know who he is, from the stride he makes to the melody of his voice.

Dreams, I dream,Of a wonderful place, faraway from misery.
Dreams, I dream,Of a plenty of juices and fruits of life.
Dreams, I dream,Of a lost land of magic and power and might.
Dreams, I dream,Of a world of strife, but a universe of light.

Wonder, I wonder, Fantasy is real.
Wonder, I wonder, Life is real

So is Reality a Life of Fantasy-surreal.

bE fAir wiTh mE

The Right to Live.

The Right to Freedom.

What are these and the other natural laws for? It is for humanity, for everybody, for us to live a happy and peaceful life. Isn't it a stand for everyone of us to always be equal to one another? In the eyes of God, we are all equal as what religion has told us. In the hands of the Government, they say we have equal rights as stated in the Constitution and by-laws.

I have noticed the strangeness, the peculiarity of the word "equality" in all it's sense as how it is viewed by society nowadays.It is already strange for me, an alienated concept from a long lost world of morality. A peculiar thing that everyone wishes to have, when the nature of it now is twisted and questionable. In the fangs of evilness, was Fred ever saved from such fate? he never done wrong to his religion, to the government, but why is life and freedom deprived from him? From his wife? From his son? The equality religion and government promised them, was it all in vain? He doesn't have the right to be discriminated, to be considered as a dirty pig in the society, to be stepped on, to be crushed by the cruelty of his own kin. Life is miserable and hateful. Peace and freedom, but it just slips away like sands on clenched fists. Fred and his race wanted to escape from such brutal fate handed to them by the wretched demons, and they strive so hard to finally live in a serene field of flowers blooming and the wind blowing comfort to their napes.

Consequences, rewards, trades or payments, are these of taking something in giving up another? It is said that God empties your hands in order for you to receive a much bigger blessing, thus, it is inevitable in losing. If Fred was disagreeable to the harsh reality of his wife and sons death, what is there left for him to agree to? Pretending no reality like such would be real, pretending it was just a game. But, it was a game of life and death.

And then, God empties his hand. And what was taken from him was life. His family's life, his life.In the irony of it all, he proved that though destiny have given him enough pain, suffering and hardships, he pretended that all was OK, all will be alright in time, lied the ironic situation to the child that life is beautiful. But, it is for the pure heart to see, that indeed, life is extraordinarily beautiful.

(This was an essay I made few months ago. I've changed the identity of the characters, but they resemble some characters of the movie, "Life Is Beautiful".)

SEALED

I found this letter stamped SEALED last month...


October 13, 2008

Dear God,

I am known by the name of Sunny, and that is all I can tell you of my identity because whoever I may be, I do not know. I am Anonymity, I have no definite and real name, I am unrecognized by everybody in my world. All-knowing and powerful God, wherever you are, will you ever guide me in life? If I end my life, will it be sinful to you? If I endure and suffer insanity, will not it be painful for you? Oh God, I have no way out. either of the way, I end up a loser, I end up looking miserable. It would have been fairly enough if I could have had known who I really am and was. It should've been better that I somehow knew where I came from and whom I came from; or I woudn't be suffering like this. If the generation before me might've sinned greatly to you, is it justifiable that I be the one to catch their punishment? I don't think it fair to carry the burden not due to you. I want and always wanted to be happy. God, If you were on my shoes right at this moment, what would you do? You're fortunate that you are unfeeling, you're indiferent to pain unlike me. You enjoy seeing me hurt and suffering, you just on your throne watching me as if I'm a spectacular death show. How about you take my place, suffer like me, cry like me, hurt ike me? If you love me, why allow me to experience these pain and torture? I f you love me, you could have helped me cope and fight. If you loved me, why am I alone and unloved in this place? If you ever loved me, don't leave me. Make me feel loved. What is my worth? Show to me sooner how worthy l am. Please, never let me take on either path I have mentioned, show to me a new path that will lead me to your love and to the happiness I yearn, so I may have a real name.

Yours Truly,
Anonymity



After reading the letter, I somehow liked the word Anonymity, there's a significance of the word somewhere in my life...Thus, that's how I thought of Anonymity..

Life Notes IV

I continuously walk,

though my feet are sore;

my throat is dry,

And I am tired...

Wherever the path may lead,

I still go on...

It's an endless trail where I have no choice

but, to follow through...

But, I have the choice to how

I make every step...

It's a tiring journey;

But I have hope;

And I yearn for happiness,

for life...

God lead me...

...beLieving aNd I am haPpy...

...so herE..i want to cLear the meaning of acCeptance...and faith....
..but, this is in accordance to my own ideas and thoughts....wether you, the one reading this now...accept my view 'bout things or not...fu ques tet ahL.....
...this about my beLief in Life..my view about everyone and everything....
..I know I have a Lot of probLems, a Lot of dreams, a Lot of tragic misfortunes during my Lifetime...but, Let me teLL you, none of these ever stopped me from doing what my heart, no, my souL wants me to do. yes, i aLso stress 'bout things..but I was never the one to give up...once, I gave in to the pain..stiLL, I stood up...healed the wounds..finaLLy ceased the pain...
..i woudn't stiLL be aLive if I never seek guidance and heLp...from friends, Loved ones, and even from a voice deep within my unconciousness...and who's that?
..no One knows..some say t'was God...some say t'was my inner seLf...
...I do beLieve there is God...somewhere..i know a great wise One exist...why wouLd you think reaLity exist? and how? ofcourse someone must have made it..a creator...I respect other beLiefs about divine origins...but I can't heLp wondering how the beLiefs were formed..how they, the peopLe couLd accept it's formaL teachings....
'..being someone who is so inquisitive gives me a Lot of troubLes! ..even some of my friends compLain. But it's just my way to find enLightenment...
..i've read a magazine..and there was a quote there..."I've stopped praying and beLieving for a whiLe now and I am happy. I reaLized I don't Like beLieving and worshipping something that don't really even exist.." -to paraphrase it....and she was 15 years oLd...I am not aLone with this beLief...
..I am open to other reLigions and their teaching....then, I try to compare my beLiefs with theirs...I Listen to them as they teLL me stories of their own Gods and their own understanding of faith and existence...
'I accept the truth that a God exists...reaLity or fiction...there is God'
..I have a God...someone who is guiding me..someone who created me...who, I know Loves me because He opened me to this wonderfuL worLd! I know he Loves me becaUse as a human...I stiLL have Love within me...and i am happy....

kUng waLa ka kuwenta...DONT READ THIS!

...para Lang 'to sa mga may kuwenta!!!
...kita nio yang Lantern??
.............ano ma'feeL nio sa picture???
...ganda noh?
....kung gusto niO ang picture...may kuwenta ka nga!!
....heheheh....
....kung may kuwenta kah...marunong kang mag'appreciate sa kahit na maLiLiit na bagay sa mundo....may it be a bug or even a Leaf faLLen from an oLd tree...waLang bagay sa mundo ang waLang kuwenta...so, sorry sa mga hindi nagkaroon ng tapang na basahin ang post ko nah ito...gusto ko Lang ipaabot sa ibang mga niLaLang out there nah masaya ang buhay! haay....tsaka sa mga nang'aapi ng iba...may it be mga 'sapat' or i mean mga hayop...o mga tao...sa mga paLaging gaLit at mapanakit at mapanira....appreciate things pLease??? pahaLagahan niO ang mga bagay-bagay, ok? pahaLagahan anio rin saRiLi nio...Love yourseLf coz your beautifuL...kahit obvious naman ang ang physicaL beauty mo, hehehe....feeL beautifuL parin...
"you have worth if you know how to appreciate, even the smaLLest things..."

...being Curios eh??

...i guEss, i have mah own understanding 'bout curiOsity...there's nothing wrong being curious, we have inteLlects...we're human...think we're aLready wise to know everything? NO...we are born curious 'bout the worLd...the universe is big and there are so many mysteries embracing us...and I want to see what Lies beyond this worLd...
..to mah point of view, men have the freedom of expressing their minds..their ideas and opinions 'bout things...it's good to just understand and respect the opinions of others...and if we don't understand, weLL...just respect it...there's no Loss in doing that, right? that's what I do...and if I don't understand their reasOns...I try to find ways to understand them...again, that's curiosity...I am aLso very curious and interested in human behavior, you see...the way peopLe thinks and acts...
...this is how I see things...stupid? beautifuL? I don't reaLLy care...am just me..being someone who's hard to understand is difficuLt....you think you're on your own in soLving things...and on mah positive excuse...defense mechanism...feeLs Like your damn unique and wonderfuL...peaCe..

Diarios de MotocicLes

Ernesto Guevara de la Serna...

it was wednesday night, January 3rd of the year 2007...it was Late, and mah eyes were stiLL gLued to the TV when a new movie was starting...
...from it's beginning, I know it was a documentary...but I never knew it was going to change the direction of mah Life...
...the movie was titLed.."Diarios de MotocicLes"...or 'The MotorcycLe Diaries'...it foLLowed the Life of the 23 year oLd physician, Ernesto..his friend ALberto, a biochemist and their oLd-fashioned motorcycLe named 'The Mighty One'...they were on a journey through the great Lands of Latin America..traveLing from hometown argentina to VenezueLa...their destination...during their voyage, it was then, Ernesto reaLized the injustices happening in the Latinos...the urge to heLp the peopLe from injustice and sickness triggered that made him to become Ernesto 'Che' Guevara Serna...an important cuban revoLutionary and with the Latin bLoods...it was then at the end of the movie where I reaLized it was him..the Che Guevara peopLe aLways taLk about...'che was an expression of argentinians...most peopLe from other country wouLd guess a person is an argentinian because they were fond of saying 'che'...now, I know things about him, and what I kLearned is aLready enough to put him in the List of mah heroes and inspiration...the peopLe who motivated and inspied me to go on Living and dream..and do what I think I shouLd do...
...Ta,
ze Goddess

I don't Like the gUy they caLL Jesus Christ

...I don't Like him...that's why I want to change mAh reLigion...to what??
am not reaLLy an anti-christ...it's not as if I truLy despise him...ALL maH Life, I have Learned most about him...I do'n Like the christian church...I don't Like the way they teaCh 'bout Life and God...I don't totaLLy Like the bibLe...but, honestLy, the story and writings in it's nice...wonderfuL...I beLieve in God but I do'n Like beLieving in the christian God...
...there is this curiosity in me that teLLs mah souL to find that beLief that i wouLd reaLLy beLieve in...what??? ...am in a state of great confusion...where am Looking for those things which i'vE been wondering aLL this Lifetime ever since I opened mah eyes to the woRLd...
...whatever you peopLe wiLL say...wether what I beLieve and say is right Or wrOng...aLL I knOw is that...
...this is me...this is mah Life...this is everything I have...
...I know am stiLL growing up...i know there's stiLL a big worLd out there for me to see...i know there's stiLL too many things I have to Learn...peopLe to meet...things to finish...events to experience...
....and right at the pinnacLe...
...is the trUth am searching for...
..that wiLL enLighten me...
..frEe me..
..and right at that moment...I know I am fuLfiLLed...
..then, 'God' is with me...
Ta,
Ze Goddess

Motivation

January 3rd, 2007, wednesday... first cLass of 2007 starts...that night, Ii speNt hours infrOnt of our TV...I was wayching 'myx mo! 2006'...a show featuring different LocaL bands pLaying their songs in a what Looks like, a theatre...nor very good for a rockin' concert...then, mah father changed the channeL to MM2...the movie was The Godfather...I dounno if it's part 1 or 2 but AL Pacino was the man!!! t'was a good movie but it was oLd...then, I watched a foreign movie that somehow made me reaLize mah situation...it was a story of a 12-year oLd girL who ran away from home with her bestfriend...she never Liked her home and her parents...the two girLs Lived with two dopers in a faraway city...the two guys taught them how to steaL, smoke, and drink...but, then, in the end, they reaLized their mistake and went back home... I guess, she was just looking for peopLe to Love and understand her...and in the company of two drug users, she found refuge...they made her their famiLy, but never in the end...they have used her into doing bad...it showed me how futiLe innocence is...and each day, you need to guidance, you need to Learn...You can't make it on your own...
Ta,The Goddess